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Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Noisiest House on the Block

 We must have had the noisiest house on the block. Cause it sure seems quiet now. Even though she seldom barked, or made any noise, it just seems so quiet now.

It's been a little strange in the house with out Rox. The crate and dishes are gone, leash and collar put away, and the beds await their trip to The Northern Dog Rescue where they will be put to good use. It seems I've relied on my dogs opinion a little too much, as I continue to utter the words " Right Rox!".

 I awake in the morning , eyes to the floor, to ensure I don't step on the dog that is no longer there. I come home at lunch expecting to let her out as I have done for so long. It's why I came home at lunch.  In the evening I sit in my favorite chair and reach over the arm to give her a rub. But all I get is air. At bed time I head to the back door but now all I need do is lock it.

 Wendy was out a couple evenings this past week and it felt different being home alone. I never considered it before, but now I really feel alone when I'm the only at home

. It's going to take some time for these feeling go away.


Monday, February 11, 2013

Just Hit Me

A busy day until lunch time but I knew I had to take the afternoon off. I just wasn't sure if I was going alone or not.  I've been thinking about it since last night and I was going to do it alone. I'm glad Wendy  came with me. I'm not sure I could have done it alone. I was OK through the procedure, actually a little upset with the length of time involved but I guess they were trying to give us some time.Once the sedative kicked in and the iv was in place I had to leave.

I just finished up clearing the snow and came in the back door. Her favorite spot was in the back room, but she wasn't there. And that's when it hit me.  I'm sitting here alone in the living room typing this just to get it out of my head. I can take comfort knowing she is no longer in any pain but it doesn't really help.

I have a friend that had a dog that was in rough shape. He could hardly walk. I told my friend that if it was my dog I would not put her through that pain and I would have her put down. Two days later she had her dog put down. I felt terrible but I think it was the right thing to do.

Was I blind to her condition? If I was, I wish someone would have told me.







My favorite picture.

Gonna miss that "Little Girl"


Roxy
 July 2000 to Feb 2013

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Faces

Levi spent the afternoon while both his parents worked today.
He is starting to move around and is full of expressions,